*Non Twitter initiated topic...
Today and yesterday were self inflicted stress and pain. They just were. I had shit due ages ago and I had it started. Other work stuff just got in the way so I didn't complete it and I'm in the dog house. I am honestly a little unnerved by how much this affects my whole being. My face is hot, I feel a cold coming on and I'm in a gray mood. It feels like the time I got into a huge fight was C. many years ago. At that time I remember being completely on edge and self censored in a way to try and avoid all types of conflict and my shoulders were so tight I might as well have been a professional weightlifter.
On the reverse, I do have to acknowledge the kindness of acquaintences. A friend of a friend stopped by today while on her vacation and she brought some German magazines for me. I am at a very desperate level of trying to get my German back up to a minimum crappy level of conversation. (minimum-crappy, that's descriptive, isn't it?) I'm reaching for straws, that's for sure. At any rate, I'm meeting her and her friend tomorrow evening to show them a view of Manhattan from the Queens side and then taking them to a pre-Halloween party including pumpkin carving! Yay!
In NY and coffeeing. I miss the Twin Cities (until snow hits and then I dislike it until spring).
I miss the Twin Cities when I'm not there. This past visit, I missed it even while I was there. It's always inevitable that I'll get up and go- I want to be a mobile person, I strive to be a mobile person, however this time the Cities was different. I hit the perfect part of the year, fall. The colors change, sweaters come out and my friends had time to visit. I was able to plainly see the path in life I didn't take by leaving Minnesota. I know I wouldn't have ultimately been happy if I stayed, but the blatant view of 'what I could have had...' was unmistakable. The thing is that I'm still not ready for a life back in the Cities. I'm closer to it than I was a few years ago, but it still feels like a life to settle down into. It's the 'settling' part I can't quite commit to.
Grand Ave...oh how I miss thee...
MacGroveland/Grand Ave./Summit Ave/Cathedral area is fantastic. This is one of my favorite areas to have a coffee in when I'm at home. The neighborhoods are cosy, the food is brilliant and the coffee is great.